I have neglected this blog, and to all you loyal readers, I apologise. I have allowed life to get in the way, and not dedicated enough time and energy into the thing I love the most. Flu had me man-down for most of last week and together with miserable weather, kept me cooped up inside for three days. That gave me a lot of time for negative thinking. At one point I came to the realisation that I don’t have what it takes to be a blogger, therefore I should stop. But with the sun’s reappearance (I think I was just seriously lacking Vit D), came some much needed optimism. Here is my ”Don’t know if it’s Winter yet” look.
I have specifically neglected my writing, and have spent the last two Wednesday afternoons anxiously trying to piece sentences together for the sake of written content. How terrible am I? I have also been entertaining a certain green-eyed monster and have allowed myself to become envious of other successful bloggers. I don’t hate on them, but I do wonder how they have managed to become so popular.
Then the self-criticism kicks in and I call myself out on all the blogger characteristics I lack. I’m not super trendy, socially extroverted, social-media obsessed; I couldn’t be bothered to take an Insta-story every 5 minutes. I only have two lipsticks, one or two hairstyles, and like one pair of heels that I wear in every post (including this one). I’ve begun to run out of outfit ideas, and am broke all the time so I can’t afford to buy a new item of clothing every week.
One day, I went on Instagram and watched about 5 stories from bloggers that I follow; they were all thanking brands for gifts or event invites. I then thought, what is wrong with me? Why am I so amateur? Why is no one noticing me? Someone send me new shoes! But rational Maxine reminds crazy Maxine that all good things take time. Those bloggers have probably spent years perfecting their craft, and here I am thinking that because I’ve been a blogger for 2 seconds, I deserve some reward. No.
I think it’s normal for new bloggers (or anyone) to feel like they’re not going anywhere. I recently read a post on Fashion Me Now, that completely described everything I am going through, and every way to deal with it. I am not going to be a world famous blogger overnight, and I’m certainly not going to be a successful one with my impatient and competitive attitude. I am going to try this new thing where instead of focusing on the bad, I’m going to remind myself of everything I do have and what I have achieved so far. I’m not going to settle for what I have though; I believe in myself and expect great things for my future.
From my experience as a blogger, a fashion blogger to be more specific, the hardest part is finding a location. Oh my gosh, the amount of garage door sourcing Dan and I did this morning was insane. If you’re reading this and are thinking about installing a new garage door, please make it photo shoot ready, as in plain white and preferably taller than 2 meters. Thanks in advance!
On a serious note, I do want to thank those who have stuck around. I see you. It really means a lot to me knowing that at least one person is still keen on reading this blog, even when I’m not.
Images by Dan Erasmus.